During this stage, Erikson states that we are trying to discover our own identity and build a moral structure for ourselves. He also said that we try to find out if we fit into the social world. During this stage of development, I hid the pain that was inflicted on me. Despite my mental strength, there were more deaths in my family. The worst of all was the death of my mother. The death of the person I loved most plunged my heart into the depths of darkness and erased my mind. I hated everyone in sight and unleashed pure anger that caused the rage to rise. My spirit collapsed even more when I saw the strongest man in the world, my father burst into tears in front of me. I became antisocial and accepted the fact that I didn't want to deal with anyone in my life other than protecting my sister. This attitude also translated into my grades and school attendance. I knew right from wrong, but I didn't care. I also didn't care what society thought. I fell into isolation for most of this time. Year after year, more and more close family members died. Suddenly, when life couldn't get any worse, I was faced with another event where I was brought back to life by a defibrillator. This immense pain that I had ultimately made me break off every relationship I had. It was at eighteen that I came out of my hole, but only